It’s been way too long since I have blogged and I will re-wet my feet with this update.
I love what I do, but even though I love it there are times when I just need to slow it down and sometimes go on hiatus. I felt this way for most of 2016 up until a few weeks ago. Many things contributed to this and in the end, I did need to slow down. Yes I ended up behind or slow on a lot of things, personal projects were pushed to the back burner and left to simmer or even grow cold. But I had to do that. I would not have been happy with the result if I just phoned it in.
This is not an easy business, dealing with all the different personalities and the politics of just doing work. A couple situations happened that slowed me to a crawl and I had no desire to do anything. The thought of picking up my camera was for the first time, something I did not look forward to. Spending hours in front of the computer choosing and editing photos…was no longer fun. The usually perfect, on-time, bend over backwards, have a shoot edited in a couple days and say yes to everything persona was gone, replaced with…well something I liked less than how the other made me feel. So I have finally snapped out of it, and have refocused and set some new goals and I am learning to just ignore those situations and people, and step over the banana peels constantly being tossed in my path and to stay true to myself and block out the “noise”. I know everyone goes through this no matter what career path they are on and this was not unique to me. I am just amazed at how much I let some of it get to me.
To everyone who worked with me during this time or offered assistance or advice, Thank you. Your support was noticed and not forgotten. I know I wasn’t my usual self, but I needed to figure out who I was and what made me happy first. I think I have figured it out and am learning to choose things that matter to me and not doing it just to do it or to make someone else happy. I am looking forward to this new chapter in the ongoing rollercoaster of life.